i suck as a cheer capt. as a mazarin member. as a tkd member. as a friend.

i know u think so too.

i just suck.

no matter how hard i try, i just cannot be like others and be a good leader.

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edited: no i must be strong! just as what hanle says, believe in myself so that i can do it


shiyan :(


i need u to be here, to tell me that i can do it. but u are nowhere near.

i am neglecting many things...till the extent that i cant cope.

school. friends. tkd.

i am sorry when u all have to sacrifice for me because i have endless meetings.

i know i am still j1, and i am suppose to cope better. but i really dont think so.


i am aching all over. fell down many times. this is bad.



in my cheerleading squad there is tiongwei and adrian who both have mcts yet they are still helping with me! j2 are dying now yet they are still helping me and trying to cope at the same time! this makes me feel damn bad. :( thx u all :)


then there is daphne who cheorograph our dance and routine. she is j2, dance syf and still helping me! thx dear! u are really really eally really a great help to alpha. without u we will not make be able to do much :)



and alpha cheerleaders! :) continue to work hard tgt ok! :) and hanle, thx for helping me think of stunts and watching bring it on! u as my partner base really allow me to achieve alot :)


i feel this year will be better! :) just wait and seeeee :)


shiyan :)